Well, here we are in October! Yeah! The weather is getting cooler and the kids love that. We have been chilling out at home as much as possible, just doing our school work and keeping the home. Everything is ready for Baby#7 so we are waiting patiently. (Most of the time) I have been doing some deep cleaning that needs to be done. Wednesday we washed all the sliding glass doors in the sun room, inside and out. We've been having people from church over for dinner, making friends. I went to the women's conference through our church last weekend and it was amazing! We have a lot to be thankful for right now. But don't be fooled. I am a sinner caring for five little sinners all day long everyday. We have had a lot of really bad days lately. Days that make me want to lock myself in my closet for a few hours and cry! It's never ending work when we moms are pursuing our children's hearts and pointing out sin and calling for repentance. And then we look at ourselves and see the same sins and fighting our own flesh is just as hard as helping our children fight their's! I have a constant inner monologue going on where I despair and want to give up and then fight myself with the gospel by preaching to myself that my strength comes from the Lord and His grace is sufficient. My worth is found in Christ, not in my children's behavior or how smoothly our lessons go or anything else. I don't have to do everything right, I can fail over and over and He will still finish His work. He does not depend on me, I depend on Him. I took a picture at lunch one of these hard days to remind myself of what a table full of blessings I have. So many moments with these blessings are me just covering my face and begging God for discernment and wisdom in how to disciple them because I am so lost and clueless as to how to deal with the current misbehavior or bad attitude. Our children are not the exception. Our situation is not the exception. We must keep fighting through the fire and water and trial.
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Melissa Barrett
10/3/2015 07:54:08 am
Love the pictures and update, as always.
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Anita
10/5/2015 11:22:35 am
You are one of the strongest woman I know. I love you!
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Nannie
10/7/2015 07:59:27 pm
You will make it through. God has given you so such strength. The last two years I have felt like giving up but I finally can see the light and I know you are stronger than me. Love you all so much. Give everyone a hug and kiss for me.
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