Well, we are getting closer and closer to meeting this new baby! And to be honest this hasn't been "real" for me until very recently! My lower back is getting worse, my hips keep me up at night, my right rib cage is painful at night (for some reason), it's HOT, and my heartburn is barely manageable. And I don't care even a little! If this baby comes two weeks past his or her due date I won't care! All these ailments getting worse, the pelvic pain, the stronger braxton hicks contractions all mean I'm getting closer to meeting our new family member! This baby's movements are very impressive and strong! And I say, "bring it on!" My stomach is HUGE! The kids are marveling at it on a regular basis. And I love my belly! I know I'm gonna have a heck of a time losing weight after this baby (although I have done WAY better with weight gain than I did with Wild Man, so that is a plus) and I don't care! I'm just so thankful to be pregnant with a living baby. A month ago a lady in sunday school asked me how long I had and I responded with the "2 months" answer I knew would get the sympathetic astonished look. I smiled and said, "I know I know. I'm full all the way up to here (pointing to my diaphragm) but there is plenty of growing room out here (pointing about a foot in front of my belly)." HA! And just for anyone wondering the same thing I hear all the time when I'm out, NO! I am NOT done! If I was done, I'd have a baby in my arms. : ) I want a big healthy baby, I am not wishing for an early baby. Every day that I'm pregnant I feel more blessed. I wake in the morning and thank God immediately that I can feel this little dude or dudette rolling around and hurting my ribs for another day. I LOVE how excited my kids are! Especially my girls. They are just coming out of their skin ready to cuddle this baby! I told them I was gonna hold the baby all the time and I would slap their hand if they tried to. Tender giggled, knowing I was joking, but I got a serious glare from Hurricane before I explained I was joking. It is an overwhelming joy to bless them in this way, by giving them a new baby brother or sister. Well! I suppose I've overdone my counting of pregnancy blessings! Sorry to go on! Oh, and physically and emotionally this has been my hardest pregnancy yet! Isn't it amazing how the Lord uses the hardest times to bless us? I'm just in awe.
Today is Jasper's fourth birthday! Last year his birthday was really hard but this year it's been alright. Not too terribly emotional. In memory of him we are doing our normal baking of dirt cupcakes and singing to him. Hurricane organized a "Fun Run" and her and the other kids ran that this morning and on the last lap they decided to yell "Happy Birthday Jasper" over and over while they ran. Except The Boy, he yelled, "Jasper loves God". Also I thought I would share a story that I don't believe I shared with very many people before. All through Jasper's pregnancy I went to Zumba class at the Y. So all the ladies there knew me and were excited about our baby too. I went back to Zumba about two months after he died and everyone there quickly found out that he had died and they were treating me really awkwardly. Except this one day when I went and an elderly lady that I hadn't seen since the death came in late and waved at me all excited having seen me not pregnant anymore! She was happy for me! She wasn't mortified or dodging eye contact. So after the class she ran over all bubbly and excited and said, "Oh!!! You had your baby!! What was it?! A boy or girl?" I was so blessed by her happiness over my son that I didn't tell her he had died immediately. First I answered all the normal "just had a baby" questions smiling from ear to ear!! It was such a great moment. When she had satisfied her curiosity and started to walk off I stopped her and said, "But he died. And it's okay, thank you so much for asking about him. I love to talk about him." I had to tell her it was okay because immediately she wanted to apologize for talking about him. I don't suppose she knows how much I loved our conversation because she didn't believe me when I told so. She probably thought I was being nice and trying to help her not to feel so bad. SO, we have a busy month for birthdays!! Jasper is today, and Wild Man is August 20th! We are gonna do a little party that day and play with water guns and have a lego shaped cake (hopefully!). I'm hoping the new baby's birthday will be at some point after Wild Man's birthday, not during or before! Otherwise Daddy will be trying to bake a lego cake and that might be scary! ; ) Otherwise, we have little planned until this baby is born except preparing for the new school year (which we will start a few weeks after baby is born) and preparing for the baby.
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Tori
7/31/2014 12:18:30 pm
I've been thinking about Jasper today- happy birthday, Jasper! I still love that name. I'm glad you're doing well. I miss you, friend!
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Nannie
7/31/2014 02:13:33 pm
I have Jasper's name written on my birthday calender so I always remember. I know he is with Jesus and well loved. Can't wait to see the new addition. Let me know quickly so that I can do a quilt. I really can't do one until I know he or she. We love you all and miss you so much. Nannie
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karen
8/5/2014 02:25:27 am
Sorry for the belated Happy Birthday Jasper. Praise God the pregnancy is going well can't wait to see pictures!
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